For real...

so its 10:41 PM.... and I need to get something off of my chest... im scared.... really really scared. Why? because for the first time in as long as I have been alive, one of my parents has to have surgery... and she'll be thousands of miles away.... where I cant get to her... or be by her side... this is not cool... im not one for praying much... and believe me i aint about to start... but this is in the back of my mind and until I get a phone call two saturdays from now... saying that the surgery was perfect.. then and only then will I get this out of my head.